Clarity

There is a freedom that comes from knowing what you want, and understand, no want is out of reach: I have said this my entire life.

I want to be an artist. I want to be the best actress in the world. I want to be healthy on the inside and out. I want to write and perform stories and share them with millions of people. I want to make movies. I want to be the most giving and helpful human being I can be. I want to be happy. I want you to be happy. I want children and a loving family. I want to be with my soul mate and feel love deeper than anything I can even fathom. I want to support my entire family with ease and abundance. I want to clean up the planet. I want to build a healing retreat. I want to make a difference. I want to break the mold. I want to give them what they always want to see, but never do.
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This overwhelming wave of clarity has come over me in the past month. I have undergone internal changes I only wished for and prayed to God to help me find. I am now taking actions, on the most elementary level that are bringing me into the center of my dreams. I am proud of who I am right now, and it has been a long time since I could say this. It is one thing to keep your word to others, but it is totally different when it comes to keeping your word to yourself. I have always been one to say that I would do something to better my life or my state of being, but never really followed through. I have been able to stand on the mountain tops and look down upon all of the baby steps that would guide me to manifesting my biggest dreams, but never the will or energy to actually take them.

One step at a time. My feet are finally heading in the right direction.

There has always existed a spark within me that I believed with all my being would spread and grow when the time was right. This spark would ignite a revolution, and inner revolution, to over throw all of the demons that ever told me "No, Terra, not today". I placed my heart in this faith, and time.
And.
It happened. Like a bolt out of the blue. My heart is ablaze and my soul is on fire with the passion of a million suns, unlike anything I have ever felt before. I feel the power rising and the water beginning to boil. This is my life, my light. No one can ever put it out. The demons are melting away to reveal something that I never knew I had: Courage. Confidence. I have the courage to do this. I have the courage to be patient. I have the courage to know what I want, act on it, and not let anything stand in my way.

The irony is, this whole time, the only thing that was ever really standing in my way, was me.