This is the story about the Raccoon:
Once there was a boy who had two hunting dogs he wanted to train to catch and kill raccoons. In order for him to do this, he would have a catch a raccoon to make the dogs familiar with the scent.
One day he brought about 15 two inch nails into the wood where he found a hollowed out log. He nailed each nail in a circle around a small hole in the log, all facing inward. Then he placed a tiny round aluminum coin in the bottom of the hole.
That night, a raccoon came along the log and spotted the shiny aluminum. She walked over, put her hand in the hole and took hold of the coin. However, once the raccoon decided that she wanted to leave with and possess the shiny object, she could not get her fist out of the hole: the nails only dug into her fist as she tried and tried to pull out her hand.
The next morning, she had died.
Moral: No matter how valuable you may find something that you have in your hand, if it has you trapped and in pain, learn to let it go before it kills you.
I'd like to say Happy Birthday. I know exactly what I can give you.
Good bye.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Change, Change, Change
Oh dear, dear, dear. So close, so so far away. Time makes my head spin. Right? Wrong? Just be truthful? That's my game. Sometimes I scrape my elbows though.
I am pretty certain of what I want for the next year, however, no idea how to get it. I suppose that is part of the Journey or whatever, but man, this is hard! Why so hard. You may think that I am talking about what I want for the next year in terms of school and career, and yes, I do know what I want. I want to be good and get all the parts I want, and I actually do have an idea how to make that happen. What I am talking about wanting is this: Remaining sane in a world of men.
Here's the thing. I like this guy. Pretty normal, pretty normal, however I feel this totally immense confusion when it comes to how I should act, or present myself. Yeah, I want to have fun, I always do. But to what extent do I need to trade fun for progress and reward?
Where I stand is in this circle of time and trust that I am willing to embark on with the right encouragement. If the encouragement is lacking, then the relationship was never meant to be, and I guess at this point that equals a few days of long walks and chocolate cravings. I'd get over it, after all, I am still here and this isn't a new occurence or anything.
I am putting out a public, cosmic request to the Universe to educate me on how to be totally selfless. I think that is how one finds love. Catch 22: If you are searching for the ability to be Selfless for selfish reasons, how do you gain or truly learn the lesson? You don't. That's why, coupled with this request, I make a declaration to be open minded and let go daily. I have these dreams and fantasies that live within my mind that fuel these selfish acts and strange interactions with others. "I want you" is the most dangerous thing you can say. I have learned that and now since that option is gone, I need guidance on how to begin my new journey of discovery on this blank page.
I know I'm young, I am very very young. I'm not saying that I am looking for THE ONE or anything. I just want one. A one. Some one. Anyone. Anyone who can make my heart sing... And maybe that is a selfish request. But, deep down, isnt that sort of why we're here? To BE together and share in pleasant experiences in each others' company? As humans, just as humans. As man. As woman. As man and woman. We make a great We. I think. But I might just be being selfish. I don't know (:
I am pretty certain of what I want for the next year, however, no idea how to get it. I suppose that is part of the Journey or whatever, but man, this is hard! Why so hard. You may think that I am talking about what I want for the next year in terms of school and career, and yes, I do know what I want. I want to be good and get all the parts I want, and I actually do have an idea how to make that happen. What I am talking about wanting is this: Remaining sane in a world of men.
Here's the thing. I like this guy. Pretty normal, pretty normal, however I feel this totally immense confusion when it comes to how I should act, or present myself. Yeah, I want to have fun, I always do. But to what extent do I need to trade fun for progress and reward?
Where I stand is in this circle of time and trust that I am willing to embark on with the right encouragement. If the encouragement is lacking, then the relationship was never meant to be, and I guess at this point that equals a few days of long walks and chocolate cravings. I'd get over it, after all, I am still here and this isn't a new occurence or anything.
I am putting out a public, cosmic request to the Universe to educate me on how to be totally selfless. I think that is how one finds love. Catch 22: If you are searching for the ability to be Selfless for selfish reasons, how do you gain or truly learn the lesson? You don't. That's why, coupled with this request, I make a declaration to be open minded and let go daily. I have these dreams and fantasies that live within my mind that fuel these selfish acts and strange interactions with others. "I want you" is the most dangerous thing you can say. I have learned that and now since that option is gone, I need guidance on how to begin my new journey of discovery on this blank page.
I know I'm young, I am very very young. I'm not saying that I am looking for THE ONE or anything. I just want one. A one. Some one. Anyone. Anyone who can make my heart sing... And maybe that is a selfish request. But, deep down, isnt that sort of why we're here? To BE together and share in pleasant experiences in each others' company? As humans, just as humans. As man. As woman. As man and woman. We make a great We. I think. But I might just be being selfish. I don't know (:
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