This is the story about the Raccoon:
Once there was a boy who had two hunting dogs he wanted to train to catch and kill raccoons. In order for him to do this, he would have a catch a raccoon to make the dogs familiar with the scent.
One day he brought about 15 two inch nails into the wood where he found a hollowed out log. He nailed each nail in a circle around a small hole in the log, all facing inward. Then he placed a tiny round aluminum coin in the bottom of the hole.
That night, a raccoon came along the log and spotted the shiny aluminum. She walked over, put her hand in the hole and took hold of the coin. However, once the raccoon decided that she wanted to leave with and possess the shiny object, she could not get her fist out of the hole: the nails only dug into her fist as she tried and tried to pull out her hand.
The next morning, she had died.
Moral: No matter how valuable you may find something that you have in your hand, if it has you trapped and in pain, learn to let it go before it kills you.
I'd like to say Happy Birthday. I know exactly what I can give you.
Good bye.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Change, Change, Change
Oh dear, dear, dear. So close, so so far away. Time makes my head spin. Right? Wrong? Just be truthful? That's my game. Sometimes I scrape my elbows though.
I am pretty certain of what I want for the next year, however, no idea how to get it. I suppose that is part of the Journey or whatever, but man, this is hard! Why so hard. You may think that I am talking about what I want for the next year in terms of school and career, and yes, I do know what I want. I want to be good and get all the parts I want, and I actually do have an idea how to make that happen. What I am talking about wanting is this: Remaining sane in a world of men.
Here's the thing. I like this guy. Pretty normal, pretty normal, however I feel this totally immense confusion when it comes to how I should act, or present myself. Yeah, I want to have fun, I always do. But to what extent do I need to trade fun for progress and reward?
Where I stand is in this circle of time and trust that I am willing to embark on with the right encouragement. If the encouragement is lacking, then the relationship was never meant to be, and I guess at this point that equals a few days of long walks and chocolate cravings. I'd get over it, after all, I am still here and this isn't a new occurence or anything.
I am putting out a public, cosmic request to the Universe to educate me on how to be totally selfless. I think that is how one finds love. Catch 22: If you are searching for the ability to be Selfless for selfish reasons, how do you gain or truly learn the lesson? You don't. That's why, coupled with this request, I make a declaration to be open minded and let go daily. I have these dreams and fantasies that live within my mind that fuel these selfish acts and strange interactions with others. "I want you" is the most dangerous thing you can say. I have learned that and now since that option is gone, I need guidance on how to begin my new journey of discovery on this blank page.
I know I'm young, I am very very young. I'm not saying that I am looking for THE ONE or anything. I just want one. A one. Some one. Anyone. Anyone who can make my heart sing... And maybe that is a selfish request. But, deep down, isnt that sort of why we're here? To BE together and share in pleasant experiences in each others' company? As humans, just as humans. As man. As woman. As man and woman. We make a great We. I think. But I might just be being selfish. I don't know (:
I am pretty certain of what I want for the next year, however, no idea how to get it. I suppose that is part of the Journey or whatever, but man, this is hard! Why so hard. You may think that I am talking about what I want for the next year in terms of school and career, and yes, I do know what I want. I want to be good and get all the parts I want, and I actually do have an idea how to make that happen. What I am talking about wanting is this: Remaining sane in a world of men.
Here's the thing. I like this guy. Pretty normal, pretty normal, however I feel this totally immense confusion when it comes to how I should act, or present myself. Yeah, I want to have fun, I always do. But to what extent do I need to trade fun for progress and reward?
Where I stand is in this circle of time and trust that I am willing to embark on with the right encouragement. If the encouragement is lacking, then the relationship was never meant to be, and I guess at this point that equals a few days of long walks and chocolate cravings. I'd get over it, after all, I am still here and this isn't a new occurence or anything.
I am putting out a public, cosmic request to the Universe to educate me on how to be totally selfless. I think that is how one finds love. Catch 22: If you are searching for the ability to be Selfless for selfish reasons, how do you gain or truly learn the lesson? You don't. That's why, coupled with this request, I make a declaration to be open minded and let go daily. I have these dreams and fantasies that live within my mind that fuel these selfish acts and strange interactions with others. "I want you" is the most dangerous thing you can say. I have learned that and now since that option is gone, I need guidance on how to begin my new journey of discovery on this blank page.
I know I'm young, I am very very young. I'm not saying that I am looking for THE ONE or anything. I just want one. A one. Some one. Anyone. Anyone who can make my heart sing... And maybe that is a selfish request. But, deep down, isnt that sort of why we're here? To BE together and share in pleasant experiences in each others' company? As humans, just as humans. As man. As woman. As man and woman. We make a great We. I think. But I might just be being selfish. I don't know (:
Friday, July 10, 2009
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Mommy Dearest
I believe in my mother more than anyone in the world. Aside from being struck my lightning, I would wager that I have never come across such a force. Talk about a powerful woman. I know she is going to get everything she wants in life, and from her perspective, I can tell it is only beginning. I imagine such wonderful things coming to her it is as if they have already occurred. I cannot wait to take a back seat and watch these dreams unfold before her like lotus blossoms on the doorstep of heaven.
I love you Mommy.
And Thank you, So So much.
I love you Mommy.
And Thank you, So So much.
Clarity
There is a freedom that comes from knowing what you want, and understand, no want is out of reach: I have said this my entire life.
I want to be an artist. I want to be the best actress in the world. I want to be healthy on the inside and out. I want to write and perform stories and share them with millions of people. I want to make movies. I want to be the most giving and helpful human being I can be. I want to be happy. I want you to be happy. I want children and a loving family. I want to be with my soul mate and feel love deeper than anything I can even fathom. I want to support my entire family with ease and abundance. I want to clean up the planet. I want to build a healing retreat. I want to make a difference. I want to break the mold. I want to give them what they always want to see, but never do.
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This overwhelming wave of clarity has come over me in the past month. I have undergone internal changes I only wished for and prayed to God to help me find. I am now taking actions, on the most elementary level that are bringing me into the center of my dreams. I am proud of who I am right now, and it has been a long time since I could say this. It is one thing to keep your word to others, but it is totally different when it comes to keeping your word to yourself. I have always been one to say that I would do something to better my life or my state of being, but never really followed through. I have been able to stand on the mountain tops and look down upon all of the baby steps that would guide me to manifesting my biggest dreams, but never the will or energy to actually take them.
One step at a time. My feet are finally heading in the right direction.
There has always existed a spark within me that I believed with all my being would spread and grow when the time was right. This spark would ignite a revolution, and inner revolution, to over throw all of the demons that ever told me "No, Terra, not today". I placed my heart in this faith, and time.
And.
It happened. Like a bolt out of the blue. My heart is ablaze and my soul is on fire with the passion of a million suns, unlike anything I have ever felt before. I feel the power rising and the water beginning to boil. This is my life, my light. No one can ever put it out. The demons are melting away to reveal something that I never knew I had: Courage. Confidence. I have the courage to do this. I have the courage to be patient. I have the courage to know what I want, act on it, and not let anything stand in my way.
The irony is, this whole time, the only thing that was ever really standing in my way, was me.
I want to be an artist. I want to be the best actress in the world. I want to be healthy on the inside and out. I want to write and perform stories and share them with millions of people. I want to make movies. I want to be the most giving and helpful human being I can be. I want to be happy. I want you to be happy. I want children and a loving family. I want to be with my soul mate and feel love deeper than anything I can even fathom. I want to support my entire family with ease and abundance. I want to clean up the planet. I want to build a healing retreat. I want to make a difference. I want to break the mold. I want to give them what they always want to see, but never do.
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This overwhelming wave of clarity has come over me in the past month. I have undergone internal changes I only wished for and prayed to God to help me find. I am now taking actions, on the most elementary level that are bringing me into the center of my dreams. I am proud of who I am right now, and it has been a long time since I could say this. It is one thing to keep your word to others, but it is totally different when it comes to keeping your word to yourself. I have always been one to say that I would do something to better my life or my state of being, but never really followed through. I have been able to stand on the mountain tops and look down upon all of the baby steps that would guide me to manifesting my biggest dreams, but never the will or energy to actually take them.
One step at a time. My feet are finally heading in the right direction.
There has always existed a spark within me that I believed with all my being would spread and grow when the time was right. This spark would ignite a revolution, and inner revolution, to over throw all of the demons that ever told me "No, Terra, not today". I placed my heart in this faith, and time.
And.
It happened. Like a bolt out of the blue. My heart is ablaze and my soul is on fire with the passion of a million suns, unlike anything I have ever felt before. I feel the power rising and the water beginning to boil. This is my life, my light. No one can ever put it out. The demons are melting away to reveal something that I never knew I had: Courage. Confidence. I have the courage to do this. I have the courage to be patient. I have the courage to know what I want, act on it, and not let anything stand in my way.
The irony is, this whole time, the only thing that was ever really standing in my way, was me.
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Breathe It In
Whoa! Hello there! Firstly, Thank you. Thank you for being You! I wish I could just hop right out of this screen and give you a big, fat kiss on the lips. I really do. For now, you will just have to imagine that and we can move on.
Just Breathe. Take it in and let it out, because, we can. That's really what it comes down to in the end, breathing. Everything breathes, and it breathes in color and shape and texture and emotion. Everything, at its core, is energy, we are energy and with this tiny little spark our lungs began this journey, like a jelly fish, of opening and closing, holding and releasing.
It's a gift, it's our gift that we can give to the world, for as long as my lungs work and my energy pulsates through my being, I can reach out and touch you. I want to touch you. Not in that way of course, or maybe, yeah, in that way. Come on, we all do sometimes. My point is that we have something in our lives that is our life, and it is meant to be shared and given away at the speed of light, faster even, the speed of thought. I wonder what the World Record is for Giving. I think this is what we ought to be striving for. And the beautiful thing is that it doesn't have to be a physical giving, although that is good too, but it can be a giving of spirit! A smile, a laugh, eye contact, a care, a happy thought; it isn't hard to fly.
The more I breathe the more I see how infinite this supply of giving is. It is eternal. It is Love.
Sometimes, when I do not take care of myself I do not see this as clearly as I'd like. It is through these trials of darkness that I learn how to breathe, and let in the light, that so eagerly awaits us to give it the opportunity to reside within and illuminate our beautiful souls.
At this point of our lives, after going through the hardships and challenges of unlearning how to be loved, it is most important to open up and remember just how special we are. It is the truth: You are a Gift, a Miracle, and you deserve every great thing that you ever imagined. And why? Because you are You.
Breathe. Sit still, be silent. Right Now... Breathe It In.
It is who you are, always were, and always will be.
I believe in you. I love you.
Pass it on.
Just Breathe. Take it in and let it out, because, we can. That's really what it comes down to in the end, breathing. Everything breathes, and it breathes in color and shape and texture and emotion. Everything, at its core, is energy, we are energy and with this tiny little spark our lungs began this journey, like a jelly fish, of opening and closing, holding and releasing.
It's a gift, it's our gift that we can give to the world, for as long as my lungs work and my energy pulsates through my being, I can reach out and touch you. I want to touch you. Not in that way of course, or maybe, yeah, in that way. Come on, we all do sometimes. My point is that we have something in our lives that is our life, and it is meant to be shared and given away at the speed of light, faster even, the speed of thought. I wonder what the World Record is for Giving. I think this is what we ought to be striving for. And the beautiful thing is that it doesn't have to be a physical giving, although that is good too, but it can be a giving of spirit! A smile, a laugh, eye contact, a care, a happy thought; it isn't hard to fly.
The more I breathe the more I see how infinite this supply of giving is. It is eternal. It is Love.
Sometimes, when I do not take care of myself I do not see this as clearly as I'd like. It is through these trials of darkness that I learn how to breathe, and let in the light, that so eagerly awaits us to give it the opportunity to reside within and illuminate our beautiful souls.
At this point of our lives, after going through the hardships and challenges of unlearning how to be loved, it is most important to open up and remember just how special we are. It is the truth: You are a Gift, a Miracle, and you deserve every great thing that you ever imagined. And why? Because you are You.
Breathe. Sit still, be silent. Right Now... Breathe It In.
It is who you are, always were, and always will be.
I believe in you. I love you.
Pass it on.
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